What the heck is wrong

Ok... so I just told my sister-in-law I was going to go to sleep. I went and checked a few things first and find I need to post this first.

I come from a fairly interesting background. My mother was someone who dearly wished she had been born in the time of Woodstock and the big counter-cultural world of those in 60's society called "Hippies". She did drugs she had free sex and she acted liked a hippy. Even thought she was born about 15 or so years too late to really fit into their movement. So I heard liberal politics spouted for the first 13 years of my life.

I became a Christian at the age of 15 and I agreed with the moral teachinsgs I was taught there. I knew somehow within my spirit even before I would have declared myself as a christian there was something wrong with living with a man who was not your husband, that there was something wrong with free love sex and happiness. That abortion was really another word for infanticide and the murder of an innocent life.

In my sheltered world that I lived in from the time I was 19 until I was 25 at LIFE I thought most of my fellow classmates believed the same way I did on these issues. I am morre and more disillusioned when I see and hear over and over that they don't really. That abortion isn't another word for murder. That prochoice isn't promurder. I disagree. I so disagree that it hurts my heart that my alma mater is sending out students with ba's in biblical studies who don't think there is something wrong with abortion. Who think liberation theology, word faith theology or whatever the most popular theologic practices are in that moment are whats best.We need to return to GOOD theology and careful study of scripture and meditate on what we find there.

I keep seeing people graduate and get disillusioned with what they once thought was a call on their life. Graduates are being slammed down by those above them in ministry. They are abandoning the call they felt because "it doesn't pay" to be a pastor, or because they simply don't "feel" called anymore.

We don't always "feel" God, but does that not mean he isn;t there? God is always where he is. He is not the one who moves. We are the ones who move. God doesn't call us out one day and abandon us the next. I have been having a struggles of faith and I am realising that THIS is the conclusion I need to come to. My feelings don't matter. What I feel doesn't matter. What matters is that I keep faith and realise he is right where he has always been. He is not the one who moves away. If I feel distant it is because I have distances myself.

I am just getting frustrated with what I see. For those of you out there at life or who have graduated I just want to encourage you remember that call that God put on you. DON'T give up.